learning to lose yourself.

I have realized that i tire of people easily. And its not only other people but also myself.Yes after all we are around ourselves 24*7. I picked up this thought from a movie i was watching yesterday, Before sunrise. The guy Jesse has this theory about how some of the things we enjoy most in life, are experiences in which we lose ourselves. Like drinking, dreaming, for some even reading a really good book, watching a captivating movie. And even falling in love. Because its only when we truly lose ourselves to something, that we can truly appreciate what is before us. Or else the selfish creatures that we are, till then its only about us.

the luxury of nothingness!

So i'm finally free! After almost a year of looking forward to this, when now i've finally got my "free time", it does feel like an anticlimax..I think too much of anticipating anything, always tends to make you feel a little disappointed in the end.But why am i forming so many opinions,when its barely been a few days.But as of now, i'm just enjoying my time doing absolutely nothing.I've put all my plans on hold.My plans of shopping,getting a new haircut, a new wardrobe,a new ME!!! It can all wait.Meanwhile i'm enjoying this absolute nothingness.Where one day leads to another so easily, so effortlessly.Yes its definitely a luxury.Because sooner than later, I'll have to get back to the grind.Till then this luxury is mine to enjoy and cherish. And i'm making the most of it!

whirlpool

my dream view!!!!!!

a pot full of emotions!

round and round,
they twirl about,
all my emotions,
in this melting pot,
they melt,
they simmer,
they boil and froth,
until all are one...
and i cant recall,
what i was feeling anyway!

bittersweet realities,
just hold your breath,
and gulp it down,
face it head on,
thats the only way..
for what you cant change,
you cant mend,
maybe its a godsend,
in more ways than one,
maybe its difficult to see,
but i know,
in the end,
its good for me,
and i'll get through,
some more tough ones,
and in the end it'll be my destiny,
which i'll write,
anyway..........

sunday!!!!

empty trains,
and empty streets..
no signals all the way home......
balloons and laughter,
of children playing,
and shouting with glee,
sunsets by the sea,
a leisurely coffee with friends,
chatting and discussing
just about nothing!
dinner plans
and last minute reservations...
favorite restaurants
and eating too much......
heading home,
and a deep sleep..
lets enjoy,
lets live it up,
becoz tomorrow it'll be monday again!!!!!