a realisation!

On rounds, on the the 19 th floor ICU with JD, i realised something the other day. This was standing amidst 5 other doctors, discussing a difficult case. surrounded by sophisticated equipment, ventilators and what not, I realised how much I enjoy being a doctor. Whether it's the boost my ego gets, the knowledge of knowing what I know, is not known by so many. Of knowing, that most people cant understand what we say, we jabber away in a language, which may as well be Greek or Latin to laymen,it may as well be Mandarin or Cantonese, when it is actually their life we're talking about! Doesn't this indicate flaws in my own character ? To enjoy this, doesn't it show me as a weak, insecure person? Why do we cherish this adulation? But i guess it just goes to show, just reiterate the same thing, that we as doctors are after all only human, more so than others.