Dreamworld

My dreams are a mystery,
A parallel reality,
A world of unknown,
And still one I own.

Sand slips through my fingers,
Like haunted thoughts they often linger,
Coercing me to face,
Feelings I'd rather erase.

People and places,
So many faces,
I thought I'd forgotten, 
Like a maze they're caught in.

And then as I awake,
I don't know which is fake,
What I left behind,
Or what I see ahead.

Irani chai

The checkered tables
And the wooden chairs
The constant chatter
And the ringing bell.
The old man at the counter 
He wishes u well.
As you saunter in,
And find your place,
The smell of buroon pav
Hits your face.
As you sip on the sweet milky delight
 a multitude of  your fantasies
Soon take flight.
The maska pav, the kheema gotala,
The  spicy Bhurji and egg fry
Yes they all go
Splendidly well with
A cup of irani chai!

unfulfilled love

What is with the lure and attraction of unfulfilled love? What is it that makes attraction which is not defined more exciting? Why is it more romantic and meaningful when the lovers don't express their feelings, maybe one of them isn't even aware of it, but it still comes across. But yes, at least i do find it very romantic. It makes me think that i am a romantic of the worst kind. To admire something that is actually detrimental to anyone's happiness.

And all this I get from watching the chemistry between Dr.Temperance Brennan and Agent Seeley Booth of Bones. How corny do I sound?

clonal community!

As I see the members of the community to which I belong by birth, I cannot help but wonder how and why would they all want to look like clones. They all look exactly the same, talk the same and even appear to think the same. What is it in this herd mentality that gives them so much immense satisfaction and sense of security? Whereas most of us try to carve our niche in this world by trying to do something different, there is some kind of primal instinct to be just exactly like the next man. And the leadership of this community has hit upon this brilliant idea of sanctioning this very same idea, so that these people have the full go ahead to be each others clones. And they become more and more abundant, to the extent that now I literally cant distinguish one person from another.As most people of the world move forward, in their ways of thinking, living and behaving, these people seem to be moving backward in time. In ideas which are more and more regressive. Though outwardly, most members are educated, accomplished, but somehow they all seem to subscribe to this line of thinking. More than anything i find it amazing, how so many people have been so blinded by "faith", that they have voluntarily and happily changed their entire lifestyle, because ONE person says so. It truly is an amazing feat.

the brain and all its mystery!

My 5th term as a medicine resident, and my neurology rotation. Eager and excited i began two months ago, hoping to finally solve some of the mysteries that have so far always eluded me. But as i understand more, i also realise ,just how much we still dont know. The human brain is probably the most intricately designed circuit of all time! And the more we image , the more we biopsy, the more we study, we still so very often draw a blank, at what it is that has actually gone wrong.
And besides the neuropsychiatry component can never be ignored. A patient so often confuses you, and the most important, is to distinguish whether the complaints are organic or functional. Or simply put , whether his brain is conjuring them up or he actually has a disease to go with them.
The importance to be patient, understanding has never been more strongly impressed upon me. An important part of a neurological examination is history taking. A good detailed history, can be extremely helpful, and many a time extremely misleading. But that is where our skill as doctors comes into play, to separate and sieve through the mishmash of symptoms presented to us and figure what may be relevant and what may not.
And so as i learn and understand more, i also realise just how much i dont know.

Reason: A prayer

I vow today, never to accept any fact, opinion or thought without reason. Never to believe without questioning. Never to understand without asking why. I vow to always be true to reason. Always to give a thought, and figure it out myself, why this must be so. To adopt a more scientific approach to life and all its dealings. And I know that this in itself will be my big contribution to society. By not being another unthinking face in the crowd. Adopting the majority vote. Not believing or even imagining that there can be another way! A solution out of the ordinary. I will escape from all that is mundane, and strive to be extraordinary. To NOT fit in. To not mould myself into the existing forms, but find a new, individual one, that suits me. I will not be sorry for my strikingly different thoughts. I will stand by myself, even if no one else will. I will be who I am, and to do this I will accept myself, for myself.